"He slept beneath the moon,
He basked beneath the sun;
He lived a life of going-to-do,
And died with nothing done."

Had made a brief reference to the last two lines in a previous post and found the entire epitaph on the net. loved it. Its not enough to desire something and have the capability to get it. The effort that goes into achieving all you've wanted makes all the difference. Now, I know its a cliched thing to say that intelligence is nothing without hardwork but its never been the conventional thoughts that have inspired me. I'd rather make my own mistakes and rediscover the wisdom being passed down through the ages.

At this moment, its so easy to "sleep beneath the moon and bask beneath the sun". I am living a life of "going-to-do" and am hoping for a miracle to not let the last line come true. When life goes fine, I have said that much as I want to, I cannot take credit for all the good I do. Its almost as if a guardian angel makes sure everything falls in place. There's no zest/determination internally that drives me, its all taken care of by a Higher Power. And when i DO have the determination and focus internally, there still have been times when i havent carried out a task efficiently. Now, if I dont take the credit for doing things right when things go fine, can I shrug off the responsibility of doing things wrong when I do fall short? or am I just looking for an easy way out?

Much as it sounds defensive, I think am being honest when I say I've started to believe in destiny. Everything is pre-destined and there's only so much you can do to help yourself. You can keep making your effort in order to not let an opportunity go by at a time when destiny's decided to give you a chance. So am keeping watch and waiting for my turn :-)

Its not that life will start once destiny turns an eye towards me. Life is right now and everything we have is already here. Its about what you do with it. Its been a wonderful experience, with all its highs and lows and there's no reason why life should wait. If there's one thing I cant do, its waiting - for the right time to start living...

All worked up

It’s all about choices. I’ve heard it before but like most things you hear in every day’s course, it sounded nothing more than faff. Philosophy conjured by people who wouldn’t remember to use it when the time came. But when you realize something for yourself, it doesn’t matter if its philosophy taught by someone ages ago or a brand new thought that’s never occurred to anyone before. You know when something’s ‘just right’. When bogged down, you have a choice – to cry or to retort. I choose the latter. To retort leaves you with choices again. To shoot your mouth off or to work your way and not give a chance to anyone / anything to bog you down. I chose the latter.

With a smile :-)

Take a day at a time

Smile your way, Build a rhyme

Of what they say, do not care

Lose yourself in a day and stare

Into space where time stands still

For imagination and fantasies' fill

I do not care for wrong or right

I live in a world where the sun shines bright!

Silly but what the hell

A girl walked in yesterday to give an interview at the company I work for. While I asked questions to judge her answers, she came up with a few questions of her own. Which is not unnatural or unreasonable in any way. She asked about the selection procedure and the next rounds of the interview. While I explained that provided I forwarded her resume to my boss, she will give the next round to meet the manager and then the HR. to this, she said, “Oh, ok. So I came now just to meet you and this is not like the formal interview” I replied, “You can take it anyway you like” She tried to cover up and said that she’s sorry and just wanted to know the process.

But it stayed on my mind. No, not the fact that she didn’t take me seriously enough. I don’t give a tiny rat’s *** for that. But what stayed was, how stupid are you? How can you walk in for an interview and say something so silly? Why is it that even when you are perfectly capable of handling a certain job, you allow stupid reasons like these steal your glory. Not that this one job would give you a lot of glory but in the long run, will u you reach where you can be?

On a Tangent

Escaping confines, setting myself free,
Life of a vagabond, the sky I yearn,
Camouflage with the earth as beasts talk to me,
I shall pack my bags and walk into anonymity...

A lot of thoughts are running through my mind. And they are barely related to each other. Every aspect of my life is being highlighted in my head and I don’t know how to go about it all. Need to spare some time with myself in order to jot it down and narrow down to what exactly matters to me and how.

Am supposed to work but brain aint letting me
I want to talk sense but am lost in a fantasy
Am sitting all alone but i have company
I feel smoked up but am as sober as thee

LSD would make me see colours
While my mood Heroin would ease
Weed would have me in splits
But I aint had none of these

Drugs would make life interesting
And rouse a crazy time
But am crazy as crazy can be
Just lost in my fantasy

Okay, thats was supposed to be a paragraph. Dont know where that came from...
One life’s way too short. Said it before but cant say it enough. We should have multiple lives with memory of past lives retained intact. One for career, one for family, one for friends and one for traveling. Sure, monotony sucks and one life for each wouldn’t help either but at least you get to live twice!

Haywire

Always been a scatterbrain. Won’t recognize myself any other way…there are so many thoughts running in my mind simultaneously. At this rate, I’ll go crazy very soon. Need a better routine that makes life a little more organized. Everything is too frenzied right now. Am constantly on my toes and thinking about this and that. Too many things I want to do at once and am accomplishing nothing. Had heard a few lines, don’t remember them entirely but something to the effect of,
“He lived a life of “to-do”
And died with nothing done”
Pretty scary. If I continue this way of life……I don’t wish to complete that sentence.

There was one beautiful poem that crosses my mind very often.

Riches I hold in light esteemAnd Love I laugh to scornAnd lust of Fame was but a dreamThat vanished with the morn–
And if I pray, the only prayer That moves my lips for me Is–"Leave the heart that now I bear And give me liberty."
Yes, as my swift days near their goal 'Tis all that I implore Through life and death, a chainless soul With courage to endure!
When you believe in lines like these and are burdened with worldly care…